hi people!! omg ive left this blog empty for more than a year arld!! currently typing in the dark since its 1am... actually im not updating my blog...jus ranting bout how the past year has been...well the past year has been hectic since its my sec 4 year...and now its over haha!! many things have gone wrong, many has gone ok...many has gone weird! but im actually glad i completed this year fulfilling-ly with all my friends and other people whom care about me and whom i care about. starting of the year was shit cos of my math teacher. haha she picked on me the very first day and continued since then. every single lesson she'll call on me to answer a question. like really every single lesson, my table partner can vouch for that. She made me cry once somemore. cos she's the type that doesnt SCOLD you. she HUMILIATES you and makes you feel like you're just a useless pile of shit. Our whole class used to hate her...but she really grows on us. She's funny without even attempting to do so... her famous quote is " eyes of fresh fish" haha!! her actions are simply hilarious and she's scarily organised. Her handwriting is so neat that we all say she can create her own font on microsoft. Throughout the year then we slowly realise, actually she really really wants us to do well and really cares about us. Towards the end of the year when all of us are preparing for our Os, she always encourages us and pushes us to peak at the right time. And she's actually is a really sweet person :) so that's for a start...after that was new year celebs which i arld forgot what it was about...then came express yourself day and arts fest!! express yourself day was cool! our class was rock theme, so i wore coloured contacts (which enlarged my eyes) and eyeliner. MY EYES LOOKED SCARILY HUGE HAHA!! then prelim 1 came and went...and june hols arrived, which was spent mostly on studying and doing nth. Ironic huh? i mean cos june hols are supposedly for you to catch up on your studies...but i think i spent a lot time just wandering around too...yeah. i did badly for prelim1... got 22 points. so i dropped to combine science. Then prelim 2 came and went. i got 17 points. improvement but still not enough...and finally Os. seriously time flies...really. IM SEC 4! like what the hell?? i still remember my primary school days ok! and now i've graduated from cedar... ALREADY. and like PSLE, i dont think i really really put in my best...cos i started really mugging about 1.5 weeks-2 weeks before Os started...that period i went back to school everyday to study...but that's compared to people who arld started mugging since prelims...so i dont know if i'll do well...just hope for the best. where was i? oh yeah, time flies. ITS ARLD ONE WEEK AFTER Os!!!soon i'll be back from HK, soon prom will be over! and soon i'll get my results!! omg im gonna die!! really, time is passing too fast for me to catch up with... within this year ive met new people, ive lost some. like the vietnam guy that said he liked me when i went to vietnam in sec 1...well we lost contact actually...then he found me agn this year. He was real happy and even thanked me for 'going back to him'. i mean...what?! lol...then we talked and he said he was still trying to come to SG...and he says really mushy things so i guess he still likes me...but i didnt like him back!! so i had to tell him...it was my first time rejecting someone...and i hope i never have to do it agn cos it feels really bad. Then he said thanks for telling him and he said he would try to treat me as his sister. So we stayed on trying to treat each other like siblings...until he told me he couldnt fix his feelings...after that he was alright agn...but now, suddenly he doesnt talk to me anymore. He's got a girlfriend now and i congratulated him when i saw his post on facebook. but he didnt reply...and my messages also werent reciprocrated either...so i guess he really let me go...let me out of his life arld... i dont know how i can get him back. i really dont. maybe thats why they say people come and go. i think ive gotta move on... but sometimes i feel quite cheated by him...he said he liked me and will try to come to SG. so i thought he really liked me and worked hard to come over for these 3 years when we werent in contact. turns out within this 3 years he actually had a relationship with someone...WHEN HE SAID HE LIKED ME!! then after i told him i didnt like him, he got into a relationship before i knew it!! makes me wonder if he really did like me that much...so now we arent speaking anymore...i mean HE ain't speaking to ME anymore. So i guess i just gotta move on. It's just really annoying how the people you like dont like u back huh? he likes me but i like another...and the one i like is kinda considered 'forbidden love'. LOL! many things happened between us...at first i though he liked me back too...come to think of it, i can say that he was flirting with me ok?! my goodness...then it all started to fade after that. I was trying very hard to ignite it agn but to no avail...then i did sth real stupid that really brought our relationship to a standstill of awkwardness. And it has continued until now...i really hope this can change, and i hope god can bless me in making this better.
SO, this is my one whole year summed up...i just wanna thank god for bringing all these wonderful people into my life and i will take a lifetime to cherish them. I also hope that my results wont be too bad and that life will be better in JC ;)
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Tuesday,27April,2010
hello!! IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!! thanks everyone for wishing me and the presents and hugs i got!! love u all^^
it may be my worst bdae at home...but it's definitely the best birthday in school!! feel loved and touched cos when i opened my email today i got 39 birthday comments from people ins chool all on facebook!! thank you all so much!!!
HAPPY HAPPY SUNNY YELLOW DAY TODAY!!!
it may be my worst bdae at home...but it's definitely the best birthday in school!! feel loved and touched cos when i opened my email today i got 39 birthday comments from people ins chool all on facebook!! thank you all so much!!!
HAPPY HAPPY SUNNY YELLOW DAY TODAY!!!
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Saturday,24April,2010
had my bdae celebration today....it was jus sort of screwed up...
there used to be the whole family celebrating for me....now cos my 2 uncles are not on good terms so one of them doesnt come to our house anymore...the other one went overseas....one of my aunties couldnt come today.... so only 5 people celebrated for me..... and i only heard 2 singing the bdae song...
i had to put the candles myself....i took out one candle and went to get the lighter....then when i went back my aunty took the whole pack of candles away arld....then she say ok let's start when i haven finish putting the candles....so i said can i have the candles back? and my mum said no need la why u want candles for?? then awkward silence....then my aunty went to get the candles back and ask how many candles u want? i said nvm dun waste time...forget it....
i was like trying so hard not to cry while they were singing the bday song...there were only 2 people singing and my ' good ' brother was watching soccer while the song was going on....perfect...
after the cake cutting i rush to my bathroom and tried not to cry cos i had to go back out agn and i COULDNT let them see i was crying....when i went out agn my mum said hello? eur the birthday girl...YOU are supposed to be serving the cake to the others not me u know?
i mean, i am the birthday girl so all the more i SHOULDNT be serving rite? so in the end it's my fault?
and my brother was the BEST BEST BEST brother u can ever have. he said: waa chloe, eur birthday damn sad, no body celebrate for u.
fucking asshole!!!
but i mean...i should be happy rite? some people dun even celebrate their birthdays....and my aunty went to buy AND make a cake for me....so i have 2 cakes!! but maybe cos my previous birthdays were far better than this years...so it feels really terrible??
but at least i got my presents^^
feel better after ranting:)
bb
there used to be the whole family celebrating for me....now cos my 2 uncles are not on good terms so one of them doesnt come to our house anymore...the other one went overseas....one of my aunties couldnt come today.... so only 5 people celebrated for me..... and i only heard 2 singing the bdae song...
i had to put the candles myself....i took out one candle and went to get the lighter....then when i went back my aunty took the whole pack of candles away arld....then she say ok let's start when i haven finish putting the candles....so i said can i have the candles back? and my mum said no need la why u want candles for?? then awkward silence....then my aunty went to get the candles back and ask how many candles u want? i said nvm dun waste time...forget it....
i was like trying so hard not to cry while they were singing the bday song...there were only 2 people singing and my ' good ' brother was watching soccer while the song was going on....perfect...
after the cake cutting i rush to my bathroom and tried not to cry cos i had to go back out agn and i COULDNT let them see i was crying....when i went out agn my mum said hello? eur the birthday girl...YOU are supposed to be serving the cake to the others not me u know?
i mean, i am the birthday girl so all the more i SHOULDNT be serving rite? so in the end it's my fault?
and my brother was the BEST BEST BEST brother u can ever have. he said: waa chloe, eur birthday damn sad, no body celebrate for u.
fucking asshole!!!
but i mean...i should be happy rite? some people dun even celebrate their birthdays....and my aunty went to buy AND make a cake for me....so i have 2 cakes!! but maybe cos my previous birthdays were far better than this years...so it feels really terrible??
but at least i got my presents^^
feel better after ranting:)
bb
Monday, April 19, 2010
Monday,19April,2010
hi...havent been postin since last yr....i know....it's been long....i was really angry juz a min ago...so came here to vent it out... my mum told me to pack those stuff on my shelf....i pack until thr was juz some small things here and there....but when i came home today...i found that all the other stuff has been cleared also...so i went to check my drawer and my cabinet. and everything was stuffed inside!!! and i juz packed nicely ytd!!! then she went to stuff things into places that they arent supposed to be!! like art stuff and my disc player stuff into my earrings bag??!! and totally repacked my cabinet!!!! then later when i say i cant find something she will say i dont put my things properly!! i'm really really angry ok??and she was in the shower when i found out....then i was like shouting in frustration and complaining!! then when she came out of the shower she knew i was angry and she heard what i said about her being irritating and anyhow doing things without me knowing....she wasnt angry....but she sort of sighed like that kind of " my kindness is not appreciated" and "my daughter thinks i'm a pain" that kind of sigh....i'm really pissed but when i heard her sigh like that i suddenly feel guilty of being angry!! i really really really hate this kind of feeling cos if i juz one day repack everything in her cupboard and she finds that everything is so misplaced and not in their usual place how will she feel? if she wants EVERYTHING to be cleared she can tell me. I will put them somewhere where I know where it is....not her to put everything in the wrong place cos I am packing MY stuff into MY drawer and cabinet!! not her!!!
u know when u start growing up u wont want others to do things for u....especially to EUR private stuff in EUR OWN cabinet!! but also as u grow older u get more sensitive of people's feelings and when u go through some heartbreaking stuff u tend to get so sentimental and soften up more easily too....especially to eur own family...not to mention that was my MUM!! it really gets harder and harder as u get older cos it isnt juz eurself anymore...it gets more and more of others....FML!!
u know when u start growing up u wont want others to do things for u....especially to EUR private stuff in EUR OWN cabinet!! but also as u grow older u get more sensitive of people's feelings and when u go through some heartbreaking stuff u tend to get so sentimental and soften up more easily too....especially to eur own family...not to mention that was my MUM!! it really gets harder and harder as u get older cos it isnt juz eurself anymore...it gets more and more of others....FML!!
Monday, January 25, 2010
Monday,25January,2010
ok i noe i havent updated for a freaking long time...haha!!
but it's seriously a busy year and training has stretched longer cos nationals are coming...so yeah^^
but i came to post today cos there are a few bdaes i wanna wish!! jasveen!!! my table partner for 2 years!! happy birthday!!! it's today btw^^ for those of you who dun noe:)
and also!! to all DBSK fans!!! 2MORO IS JAEJOONG'S BDAE!!! ok i think it's actually not his real bdae but still!! pls DBSK fans gather eur wishes together and wish my beloved JJ a happy birthday!! love ya all^^
that's all^^ a little short but oh well^^
but it's seriously a busy year and training has stretched longer cos nationals are coming...so yeah^^
but i came to post today cos there are a few bdaes i wanna wish!! jasveen!!! my table partner for 2 years!! happy birthday!!! it's today btw^^ for those of you who dun noe:)
and also!! to all DBSK fans!!! 2MORO IS JAEJOONG'S BDAE!!! ok i think it's actually not his real bdae but still!! pls DBSK fans gather eur wishes together and wish my beloved JJ a happy birthday!! love ya all^^
that's all^^ a little short but oh well^^
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Wednesday,16December,2009
yo!!another week has passed!!omg time passes so quickly!! it's 12 degrees now!!great weather but not freaking cold yet...went to macau last weekend!! stayed over at venetian hotel...it's crazy...it has a shopping mall, a casino, a river with boat rides like venice and ( OMG! ) A MANCHESTER UNITED SHOP!! everything in the shop is manchester united merchandise!! muahaha!!
anw, i'm watching mentalist today....my HK fren i met during my sch's exchange programme is coming over on friday, then we're going to karaoke....saturday we're going to play bowling!!and monday, hi singapore!!
that's about all^^
anw, i'm watching mentalist today....my HK fren i met during my sch's exchange programme is coming over on friday, then we're going to karaoke....saturday we're going to play bowling!!and monday, hi singapore!!
that's about all^^
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Wednesday,9December,2009
hello!! so fast....arld wed...IT'S NOT COLD OVER HERE!!!dunno why the weather getting hotter since we come....it's around 20 over degrees here?? wth...
travelled to mainland....played with my uncle's dog....THE DOG IS FREAKING CRAZY AND CUTE!!! i juz stood outside the door and he came rushing out and jumping around like mad!! and he'll lick u and put his paws on eur legs and stand up....he's scared of the electric racquet used for killing flies....so when i hold it he wont dare come to me....haha!! after that i wasnt scared of him anymore....then sometimes when i sit on the sofa he'll jump onto the sofa and lie on my lap.... and when he's tired he will lie on the sofa with his eyes half close....maddest dog i've ever seen....haha!!
had quite an experience on the way back to HK from mainland....the car we took was halt and suspected that it was an illegal taxi....cant explain the details....but 4-5 policemen came into the car and started asking my uncle to admit that it was a illegal taxi....but my uncle really didnt know....and they started saying that we're not cooperating and all that crap nonsense....
that's about all for these few days....i juz laze around or go to the supermart or watsons to shop something like that....boring... :P
DDDDBBBBSSSSKKKK!!!!!!!!! :3
travelled to mainland....played with my uncle's dog....THE DOG IS FREAKING CRAZY AND CUTE!!! i juz stood outside the door and he came rushing out and jumping around like mad!! and he'll lick u and put his paws on eur legs and stand up....he's scared of the electric racquet used for killing flies....so when i hold it he wont dare come to me....haha!! after that i wasnt scared of him anymore....then sometimes when i sit on the sofa he'll jump onto the sofa and lie on my lap.... and when he's tired he will lie on the sofa with his eyes half close....maddest dog i've ever seen....haha!!
had quite an experience on the way back to HK from mainland....the car we took was halt and suspected that it was an illegal taxi....cant explain the details....but 4-5 policemen came into the car and started asking my uncle to admit that it was a illegal taxi....but my uncle really didnt know....and they started saying that we're not cooperating and all that crap nonsense....
that's about all for these few days....i juz laze around or go to the supermart or watsons to shop something like that....boring... :P
DDDDBBBBSSSSKKKK!!!!!!!!! :3
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