NOVEMBER 21, SUNDAY, 2011

hi people!! omg ive left this blog empty for more than a year arld!! currently typing in the dark since its 1am... actually im not updating my blog...jus ranting bout how the past year has been...well the past year has been hectic since its my sec 4 year...and now its over haha!! many things have gone wrong, many has gone ok...many has gone weird! but im actually glad i completed this year fulfilling-ly with all my friends and other people whom care about me and whom i care about. starting of the year was shit cos of my math teacher. haha she picked on me the very first day and continued since then. every single lesson she'll call on me to answer a question. like really every single lesson, my table partner can vouch for that. She made me cry once somemore. cos she's the type that doesnt SCOLD you. she HUMILIATES you and makes you feel like you're just a useless pile of shit. Our whole class used to hate her...but she really grows on us. She's funny without even attempting to do so... her famous quote is " eyes of fresh fish" haha!! her actions are simply hilarious and she's scarily organised. Her handwriting is so neat that we all say she can create her own font on microsoft. Throughout the year then we slowly realise, actually she really really wants us to do well and really cares about us. Towards the end of the year when all of us are preparing for our Os, she always encourages us and pushes us to peak at the right time. And she's actually is a really sweet person :) so that's for a start...after that was new year celebs which i arld forgot what it was about...then came express yourself day and arts fest!! express yourself day was cool! our class was rock theme, so i wore coloured contacts (which enlarged my eyes) and eyeliner. MY EYES LOOKED SCARILY HUGE HAHA!! then prelim 1 came and went...and june hols arrived, which was spent mostly on studying and doing nth. Ironic huh? i mean cos june hols are supposedly for you to catch up on your studies...but i think i spent a lot time just wandering around too...yeah. i did badly for prelim1... got 22 points. so i dropped to combine science. Then prelim 2 came and went. i got 17 points. improvement but still not enough...and finally Os. seriously time flies...really. IM SEC 4! like what the hell?? i still remember my primary school days ok! and now i've graduated from cedar... ALREADY. and like PSLE, i dont think i really really put in my best...cos i started really mugging about 1.5 weeks-2 weeks before Os started...that period i went back to school everyday to study...but that's compared to people who arld started mugging since prelims...so i dont know if i'll do well...just hope for the best. where was i? oh yeah, time flies. ITS ARLD ONE WEEK AFTER Os!!!soon i'll be back from HK, soon prom will be over! and soon i'll get my results!! omg im gonna die!! really, time is passing too fast for me to catch up with... within this year ive met new people, ive lost some. like the vietnam guy that said he liked me when i went to vietnam in sec 1...well we lost contact actually...then he found me agn this year. He was real happy and even thanked me for 'going back to him'. i mean...what?! lol...then we talked and he said he was still trying to come to SG...and he says really mushy things so i guess he still likes me...but i didnt like him back!! so i had to tell him...it was my first time rejecting someone...and i hope i never have to do it agn cos it feels really bad. Then he said thanks for telling him and he said he would try to treat me as his sister. So we stayed on trying to treat each other like siblings...until he told me he couldnt fix his feelings...after that he was alright agn...but now, suddenly he doesnt talk to me anymore. He's got a girlfriend now and i congratulated him when i saw his post on facebook. but he didnt reply...and my messages also werent reciprocrated either...so i guess he really let me go...let me out of his life arld... i dont know how i can get him back. i really dont. maybe thats why they say people come and go. i think ive gotta move on... but sometimes i feel quite cheated by him...he said he liked me and will try to come to SG. so i thought he really liked me and worked hard to come over for these 3 years when we werent in contact. turns out within this 3 years he actually had a relationship with someone...WHEN HE SAID HE LIKED ME!! then after i told him i didnt like him, he got into a relationship before i knew it!! makes me wonder if he really did like me that much...so now we arent speaking anymore...i mean HE ain't speaking to ME anymore. So i guess i just gotta move on. It's just really annoying how the people you like dont like u back huh? he likes me but i like another...and the one i like is kinda considered 'forbidden love'. LOL! many things happened between us...at first i though he liked me back too...come to think of it, i can say that he was flirting with me ok?! my goodness...then it all started to fade after that. I was trying very hard to ignite it agn but to no avail...then i did sth real stupid that really brought our relationship to a standstill of awkwardness. And it has continued until now...i really hope this can change, and i hope god can bless me in making this better.
SO, this is my one whole year summed up...i just wanna thank god for bringing all these wonderful people into my life and i will take a lifetime to cherish them. I also hope that my results wont be too bad and that life will be better in JC ;)