hello!! IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!! thanks everyone for wishing me and the presents and hugs i got!! love u all^^
it may be my worst bdae at home...but it's definitely the best birthday in school!! feel loved and touched cos when i opened my email today i got 39 birthday comments from people ins chool all on facebook!! thank you all so much!!!
HAPPY HAPPY SUNNY YELLOW DAY TODAY!!!
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Saturday,24April,2010
had my bdae celebration today....it was jus sort of screwed up...
there used to be the whole family celebrating for me....now cos my 2 uncles are not on good terms so one of them doesnt come to our house anymore...the other one went overseas....one of my aunties couldnt come today.... so only 5 people celebrated for me..... and i only heard 2 singing the bdae song...
i had to put the candles myself....i took out one candle and went to get the lighter....then when i went back my aunty took the whole pack of candles away arld....then she say ok let's start when i haven finish putting the candles....so i said can i have the candles back? and my mum said no need la why u want candles for?? then awkward silence....then my aunty went to get the candles back and ask how many candles u want? i said nvm dun waste time...forget it....
i was like trying so hard not to cry while they were singing the bday song...there were only 2 people singing and my ' good ' brother was watching soccer while the song was going on....perfect...
after the cake cutting i rush to my bathroom and tried not to cry cos i had to go back out agn and i COULDNT let them see i was crying....when i went out agn my mum said hello? eur the birthday girl...YOU are supposed to be serving the cake to the others not me u know?
i mean, i am the birthday girl so all the more i SHOULDNT be serving rite? so in the end it's my fault?
and my brother was the BEST BEST BEST brother u can ever have. he said: waa chloe, eur birthday damn sad, no body celebrate for u.
fucking asshole!!!
but i mean...i should be happy rite? some people dun even celebrate their birthdays....and my aunty went to buy AND make a cake for me....so i have 2 cakes!! but maybe cos my previous birthdays were far better than this years...so it feels really terrible??
but at least i got my presents^^
feel better after ranting:)
bb
there used to be the whole family celebrating for me....now cos my 2 uncles are not on good terms so one of them doesnt come to our house anymore...the other one went overseas....one of my aunties couldnt come today.... so only 5 people celebrated for me..... and i only heard 2 singing the bdae song...
i had to put the candles myself....i took out one candle and went to get the lighter....then when i went back my aunty took the whole pack of candles away arld....then she say ok let's start when i haven finish putting the candles....so i said can i have the candles back? and my mum said no need la why u want candles for?? then awkward silence....then my aunty went to get the candles back and ask how many candles u want? i said nvm dun waste time...forget it....
i was like trying so hard not to cry while they were singing the bday song...there were only 2 people singing and my ' good ' brother was watching soccer while the song was going on....perfect...
after the cake cutting i rush to my bathroom and tried not to cry cos i had to go back out agn and i COULDNT let them see i was crying....when i went out agn my mum said hello? eur the birthday girl...YOU are supposed to be serving the cake to the others not me u know?
i mean, i am the birthday girl so all the more i SHOULDNT be serving rite? so in the end it's my fault?
and my brother was the BEST BEST BEST brother u can ever have. he said: waa chloe, eur birthday damn sad, no body celebrate for u.
fucking asshole!!!
but i mean...i should be happy rite? some people dun even celebrate their birthdays....and my aunty went to buy AND make a cake for me....so i have 2 cakes!! but maybe cos my previous birthdays were far better than this years...so it feels really terrible??
but at least i got my presents^^
feel better after ranting:)
bb
Monday, April 19, 2010
Monday,19April,2010
hi...havent been postin since last yr....i know....it's been long....i was really angry juz a min ago...so came here to vent it out... my mum told me to pack those stuff on my shelf....i pack until thr was juz some small things here and there....but when i came home today...i found that all the other stuff has been cleared also...so i went to check my drawer and my cabinet. and everything was stuffed inside!!! and i juz packed nicely ytd!!! then she went to stuff things into places that they arent supposed to be!! like art stuff and my disc player stuff into my earrings bag??!! and totally repacked my cabinet!!!! then later when i say i cant find something she will say i dont put my things properly!! i'm really really angry ok??and she was in the shower when i found out....then i was like shouting in frustration and complaining!! then when she came out of the shower she knew i was angry and she heard what i said about her being irritating and anyhow doing things without me knowing....she wasnt angry....but she sort of sighed like that kind of " my kindness is not appreciated" and "my daughter thinks i'm a pain" that kind of sigh....i'm really pissed but when i heard her sigh like that i suddenly feel guilty of being angry!! i really really really hate this kind of feeling cos if i juz one day repack everything in her cupboard and she finds that everything is so misplaced and not in their usual place how will she feel? if she wants EVERYTHING to be cleared she can tell me. I will put them somewhere where I know where it is....not her to put everything in the wrong place cos I am packing MY stuff into MY drawer and cabinet!! not her!!!
u know when u start growing up u wont want others to do things for u....especially to EUR private stuff in EUR OWN cabinet!! but also as u grow older u get more sensitive of people's feelings and when u go through some heartbreaking stuff u tend to get so sentimental and soften up more easily too....especially to eur own family...not to mention that was my MUM!! it really gets harder and harder as u get older cos it isnt juz eurself anymore...it gets more and more of others....FML!!
u know when u start growing up u wont want others to do things for u....especially to EUR private stuff in EUR OWN cabinet!! but also as u grow older u get more sensitive of people's feelings and when u go through some heartbreaking stuff u tend to get so sentimental and soften up more easily too....especially to eur own family...not to mention that was my MUM!! it really gets harder and harder as u get older cos it isnt juz eurself anymore...it gets more and more of others....FML!!
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