Monday,19April,2010

hi...havent been postin since last yr....i know....it's been long....i was really angry juz a min ago...so came here to vent it out... my mum told me to pack those stuff on my shelf....i pack until thr was juz some small things here and there....but when i came home today...i found that all the other stuff has been cleared also...so i went to check my drawer and my cabinet. and everything was stuffed inside!!! and i juz packed nicely ytd!!! then she went to stuff things into places that they arent supposed to be!! like art stuff and my disc player stuff into my earrings bag??!! and totally repacked my cabinet!!!! then later when i say i cant find something she will say i dont put my things properly!! i'm really really angry ok??and she was in the shower when i found out....then i was like shouting in frustration and complaining!! then when she came out of the shower she knew i was angry and she heard what i said about her being irritating and anyhow doing things without me knowing....she wasnt angry....but she sort of sighed like that kind of " my kindness is not appreciated" and "my daughter thinks i'm a pain" that kind of sigh....i'm really pissed but when i heard her sigh like that i suddenly feel guilty of being angry!! i really really really hate this kind of feeling cos if i juz one day repack everything in her cupboard and she finds that everything is so misplaced and not in their usual place how will she feel? if she wants EVERYTHING to be cleared she can tell me. I will put them somewhere where I know where it is....not her to put everything in the wrong place cos I am packing MY stuff into MY drawer and cabinet!! not her!!!
u know when u start growing up u wont want others to do things for u....especially to EUR private stuff in EUR OWN cabinet!! but also as u grow older u get more sensitive of people's feelings and when u go through some heartbreaking stuff u tend to get so sentimental and soften up more easily too....especially to eur own family...not to mention that was my MUM!! it really gets harder and harder as u get older cos it isnt juz eurself anymore...it gets more and more of others....FML!!